Let me tell you about stepping out of your comfort zone and fear and being ballsy and what that looks like to me. A few years back I started doing these workshops which have since morphed into something else entirely. I have no idea what to name this thing. What to call it. It's not really a "yoga" thing but I do it at yoga studios and we sit on yoga mats. It's not really a writing thing because you don't have to be a writer or even like writing but we write. And we share. And we laugh. And we cry. And it's heavy but also really really light. And like, how do you describe that? How do you say, call up a studio in Chicago and say, "Hey, I want to come do this thing I do there at your place. I can't really describe it. You'll just have to see for yourself. People will come. Trust me." And I mean, there's a deep knowing that I will sell it out (but there's also the other part of me that's like, "OMG, you have never been to Chicago or Vancouver or whatever city it is. Who do you think you are?")
I do not listen to that voice for very long. I put on my big girl panties and shut that voice up and carry on with my cup of coffee and hush that little voice that says, "How dare you create something that is not definable and expect people will show up?" Why do I hush that voice?
Because I did do that. I am doing that.
Is it scary as f*ck? Yes.
I do this ALL BY MYSELF. I have no team of agents or managers or bookers. Just some balls. (Well, not really. Betty White says a vagina is tougher than balls, but whatever.) I pull my bootstraps up and carry on.
My word right now is TRUST.
I do not fit into any mold or any "yoga" box or literary box or self-help (it ain't that, nor is it 'woo-woo' or airy-fairy) so I simply have to trust that I am on the right path. That people will keep coming.
A couple weeks ago at my Miami workshop, people drove from all over the state and country. I had a moment where I thought, "This is what trust looks like."
It's like that line from the movie Field of Dreams. Maybe that is what I am saying in my long-winded Jen Pastiloff way, "If you build it, they will come."
They will. they do.
Nonetheless, it's so nerve-wracking (continued..)
Yes. It's true. I'm doing ONE london workshop this winter. It will sell out fast based on last two. Book asap via lumipoweryoga.com or visit my link in profile and look under retreats/workshops. Please tag all your England peeps. It's about being human. It's about going deep. It's life changing. Can't wait. #manifestationyoga #london #beautyhunting #onbeinghuman #human
"I post on Facebook “How do you parent on a night like this?” People respond with advice about how to talk to kids about race. Well-meaning, but missing the point. I don’t mean what do you say. I mean how do you go on?
How do you go on.
How do you make lunch for tomorrow and sweep and handle bath time?
How do you parent with a permanently broken heart?” *Please read and share this beautiful and brave post by Carvell Wallace on The Manifest-Station tonight. You can get there by visiting my link in profile or beautyhunting.com. Please share. #carvellwallace #TheManifestStation #beautyhunting #ferguson #brokenheart
I don't want to post anything except the word peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace peace. Whatever your beliefs are, your opinions, your deep knowings, your anger, your religion, your race- I respect that. I respect YOU.
Does praying work? I have no idea. None. Whatsoever. But it works more than violence and hatred. Please post the word "peace" below if you are committed to this right now. I know many of people have posted about unfriending people today because of their views. There is just so much pain and suffering right now. Just for right now, this moment- let's BE peace. Let's Be love. Let's stop looking the other way. One breath at a time. Peace for this world that we live in. Right now. Post below if you are in this with me.
Photo by my friend @lucerotl46 . #love #peace